am i too nice?!
or wat!?
its frustrating and irritating
when people take u fer granted
a worthless piece of junk...
dey come to u..
wen dey nid u...
lyk spare tyres...

indirectly..
they telling it to your face
looking down on you...
just fer dat one mistake
its not a joke anymore

A stranger treats you better than your own friends

how would you feel
people whom you call 'friends'
people who you trust
bitch bout u?

it always happen

hypocrites
hypocrites
hypocrites

i dunt wana be part of it
ive seen so much
of this shyte happening
and
ive learnt my lesson
to keep my mouth shut

i tot i was over wit it
but!
no0!
too stubborn
i still wana walk that road again
and hurt myself
over and over and over and over again...
i knew it
i knew it all along
i knew its gona turn out that way
wen will i ever stop?

i feel so fucked up rite now...
im beginning to see all my imperfections
noone perfect
i knoe..

i smile..
i laugh..
i joke..
jus like everyone else..
we're faking it..
its tiring isnt it?!

wat a fucked up lyfe
especially
when people dunt appreaciate you..
and take ME as i am

fuck!
im not emo
im just frustrated
sick of being used!
sick of all this shytes!

i loike my sci faci!
she lyk fun lyk dat!
and she gave us candy!
wo0!
nice!
fergot to take a pic of it!
ahahkz!
aft skool...
went fer this SITEX visit
see how events are being organise and stuff...
cool sia!
lyk fun!

then..
meet up wit the fools
helmi zaini and faisal
lepak at the park...
take pix...
climb trees!
cool sia!
then..
talk to nadia on the phone!
ahahkz!
wan....nadia....nadia...wan....
ahahkz!
*inside joke*
we lepak....
till 10+pm..
kecoh~!
faisal was so nice...
coz he borrowed me 5bucks
to take cab home!
ahahkz!
unlike
SOME people.....
ahahkz!
kk
here are all the pix!

























suddenly i lyk lazy to upload all...so here are some of the pix!
ahahkz!
kk!
datz all!


yours truly,
ida

OMG!
all the contestant fer miss werld
are lyk fugly!
no offence..
but see it fer urself uh
i tink i prettier!
ahhahahahahkz!
oh!
shuttup!
ahakz!
but serious shyte..
this year
they all look fugly.
mayb a few
quite strong...
ahakz!
but!
its always the one wit the bigger ASSET dat wins..
well..
dats how we got our ms spore!
so..
we'll just wait and see!
hu wins the ms werld!
frm my view...
venezuala quite strong!
ahakz!

ooohh!!
they eliminating the women!
1st...OUT!
2nd...OUT!
3rd..ok.ok
4th...ok...ok
5th...look so old!
6th...oklah..but her smile lyk joker
7th...quite strong
8th...SPORE! ahhakz! not that bad..okok
9th...nah~! OUT!
10th...woohoo! venezuala!! goin strong!

AHAHKZ!

hey! hey!
see what i said!
VENEZUALA WON!
i can be judge lah sia!
ahahkz!
ok.
the end!
oh!
oh!
wen ms india was strutting her stuff
my dad said..
"alah! tak lawa je...muke2 kat tekka lagi lawa!"
ahahhahakz!!
ok.
bye!

yours truly,
ida

sun pix!











sat pix!

owww!!
my whole body is aching...
due to the skanking i gues...
pain siak..
i cant sleep seh~!
and!
today my parents went batam!
annnnooooyyyiiinnnggg....!!
tot of waking up late..
catch up on my sleep...
but!
my grandma had to call early in the mornin....
and told me to come her hse....
shyte!
accompany her to this wedding...
then..
went my aunt condo..
went fer a swim..
and
went fer dinner wit my parents
aft dey came back frm batam
and now...
im so damn tired!
aching...
sleepy...
and stoopid helmi and zaini...
last min den told me to go jamming!
hotak lah!
ahahkz!
nxt tyme..
tell early2...
im a bz woman u knoe.....
ahahhakz!
kk
bye.
so long
and gudnite....


yours truly,
ida

i went to the ska gig!!!
wit fadz!
wo000oo!!!
it was damn fun!
skanking...
moshing...
best!
i loike...
and
i was hit in the head
wit dis skinhead boot
for a moment..
i saw stars!
ahahhakz!
and
lesson learnt..
do not use soft shoes..
i mean..
those cute shoes...
get me?
yeah...
nxt gig...
i'll make sure i use boots
dr martin.
muahahkz!
but!
no $$$$!!!!!
shyte!
and!
saw a whole lot of peeps i knoe..
and!
my cuzzin saw me!
but i dint see her..
dint expect to see these people though..
esp. khidir!
and khidir did sumtin!
weewit!
ahahkz!
i had a great tyme!
der was dis skinhead dude..
skanking bside me..
and he did this funny face ting..
at me..
ahahkz!
annnnoooooyyyiiinnnggg....!
siao ah dis ppl...
oh well!
i loike ska gig!
i wana go again!
oh!
oh!
got this she-man human..
me n fadz wud look at each other wenever
she-man walk past
flat boobs...
slim...
emo hair cut
skinny jeans...
make-up...
till now...
we still havent figure it out...
hmmmm............
hahakz!


oh!
my parents dint go batam!
shyte!
der goes my plan!
ahhakz!
hopefully nxt wk dey go...
BAH~!

ok.
i nid to go to the doc..
these past few daes..
my head hurt lyk hell
anyone can accompany?!
and!!!
if i admitted...
rite.....
come visit me!
ahahkz!
bring presents...!
ahhahahakz!
i nvr been admitted to hospital b4 sia...
so..
i wana get the feel
of lying in bed...
doing noting..
bsides..
eat sleep eat sleep...
lyk fun lyk dat!
ahahakz!

ok.
i wan to sleep
bye!
so long...
and gudnite...


yours truly,
ida

ok.juz came back.
guez wat?!!
dint go jamming!
coz...
it was close...
sto0pid zaini...
zaini...if u reading dis..
i repeat...
" STOooOppid zaini!! "
and i wasnt emo-ing siak...
wasnt in the mood...
sick+hunger = sicker!
ahahkz!
aniwaes...
we had to walk back to ' simei mall '
eat KFC...
den
lepak fer awhile outside..
took cab back...
i loike the apek!
ahahhahakz!
he veh nice....
ahhakz!
and i havent do my rj!
shyte!
lazy sia...
i feel lyk quitin skool
changi to woodland...
woodland to changi...
u feeling me?
ahahhahahkz!
and everyday i reach hm lyk 11pm...
then..
hav to wake up at 6am...
tired soy.....
tak bleh angkat...
but!
fer the sake of my future!
im GOING skool!
wo0!
go ida!

and tmr...
me n fadz going d ska gig!!
I LOVE YOU FADZ!
ahahkz!
and i force helmi n zaini to come along...
so to helmi and zaini
GOOOOOOO lah...!!! jiwe wit me!
show some bandmanship lah!
i ur VOCALIST sia!
w/o me u all canot survive!
ahahahhahhakz!!
especially helmi!
w/o me he is will DIE of hunger!
and if he die..
u all no hav drummer...
no vocalist...no drummer...
mangkok!
tak takot ke...................???
ahahhahahahhahakz!
u feeling me?!
ahakz!

okok
i sleepy.
i wan to sleep
so..
u shud sleep too!
ok?
ok!
so long...
and gud nite...

cheers mate!



yours truly,
ida

i rottin here...
waiting fer the idiots
wer the fuck ar they sia....
my eyes feels lyk shyte
coz i tink the contact lens
have expired..
and i can hardly see what im typing rite now...
so..
if ders typo..
excuse me...!
ahhakz!
shud b goin to gig...
BUT!
some 'father of all maggots'...
got no freaking $$$
so..
goin jamming...
i feel lyk meeting fadz n ery now...
go pasar mlm!
atleast i gt sumtin to do
rather than
i sit here and stare at my laptop
urgh...!
and im having a major headache rite now..
i tink bcoz of the contact lens too
hav to get new ones man...
shyte!

tomorrow my parents go batam!
wo0tz!
yay!
can mrayap!
and dey goin fer 2D/1N...
w0tz!
i was planning to catch a midnite movie
aft gig..
dat is if i am going to d gig...
or do sum shopynk...
WINDOW shopynk..
im fuckin broke man!
shyte!
i seriously...
badly....
want to go to the ska gig...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahahkz!
i feel so freaking sick!
but someone made it all better......
saw him lyk a few times in skool...
so yeah...
muahhakz!
kee-yo0t siak he...

my wkends are fully book!
shyte!
volunteered in some events...
get DA pts...
of coz i sign up..
i nid 40 CE pts to graduate!
shyte!
and i onie hav 7 now!
shyte!
33 more to go!
aniwaes..
my brain hurts lyk hell...
and im freaking bored rite now..
and
im hungry...
ok.
bye

"Untitled"

I think of awhile ago
We might have had it all
But I was so stupid then
You needed time to grow

But now just as things change
As well my feelings do
In time things rearrange
I am so sick of chasing you

But what do I get 'cause I just seem to lose
You make me regret those times I spent with you
And playing those games as I wait for your call
And now I give up, so goodbye and so long

It's not a change of pace
This time I'll get it right
It's not a change of taste
I was the one there last night

You have your other friends
They were there when you cried
Didn't mean to hurt you then
Best friends just won't leave your side

But what do I get 'cause I just seem to lose
You make me regret those times I spent with you
And playing those games as I wait for your call
And now I give up, so goodbye and so long

It's not a change of pace
This time I'll get it right
It's not a change of taste
I was the one there last night

When I needed you most
When I needed a friend
You let me down now
Like I let you down then

So sorry, it's over
(Ahh...)

skip skool to go shopynk wit shazie
went to skool fer the module selection briefing ting
it was damn boring!
then
i went to meet shaz
we were wearing heels
torturing!
walk around orchard..
damn tired sia...
at the end of the day
my dad picked me up at simei
went to eat at tamp
we talk bout my skool
the new restaurant in skool
talk bout my faci
bout the dance ting me n dibah sign up
and bout dance classes
which me n joti were planning to join
ok.
so now im interested in dance
so wat?!
told him bout the muay thai ting...
the recording ting me n band were planning to do
he was quite supportive
bout my whole interest ting...
datz wat i like bout my dad!
and i told my dad bout my plan
on setting up a shop
i want to sell my self-design dresses
i drew a few
but!
i've no $$
to buy the materials
i was hoping...
he wud volunteer to giv me
$$$
but instead!
he told me to go fer sewing classes!
learn how to sew ferst b4 setting up a bzness!
shyte!
oh well!
he said he will pay fer it...
but!
im still deciding....
hmmmm................................
ahahkz!

dis sat ders a ska gig...
hu can accompany me!!???
shaz cant go
bcoz of her boyfie!
i hate jaSON!!!
jason, if ure reading this....
I HATE YOU!!!!!
BOO JASON BOO!!
ahahakz!
nab tinks dat she cant go...
and fadz can onie conferm wit me tmr...
qai is not into ska...
helmi n zaini are into metal..
TAK JIWE!
wen dey wana go gig...
i follow...
but wen i wan dem to follow me go to a gig
other than metal...
hurlemeks..
i feel lyk killing them!
this is wat u call frens!
to helmi n zaini if ure reading this....
"BEDOSA! TAK ROCK SAK KORANG!"
ahhahahakz!

tmr im goin to dis metal gig at gashaus...
wo0!
finally...!!
but!
i SO wana go the ska gig!
the last ska gig i went was last year!
shyte man!
SOMEONE!!!
PLS!!!
ahhahakz!
i miss skanking!
muahahkz!
ok.
im sleepy.
i HAVE to go skool tmr...
i MUST NOT skip again!
but seriously sia..
2nd semester lyk sux lyk dat
everyone needs motivation to go skool now...
and my grades fer dis sems fucked up BIG TIME!
shyte!
i hate RP!
BOO RP BOO!!

ok.bye
gud nite
cheers mate!


yours truly,
ida

the pix dat me helmi n paul took

wen we were at TOY R US!

pretty boys!

ahahakz! helmi look lyk shyte!

tues
we celebrated sean's b'dae
at east coast
me and yanti had to carry
the food
we muscle woman wat....
and now...
my arms are toned!
ahahhahakz!

the w25bs

sean's half eaten b'dae cake!muahahkz!

i marinated the chix! nwice!

the peeps!
us...again!!hahkz!

ok.datz all.

take cares.

cheers mate!

yours truly,

ida

met helmi and paul
at tamp
went TOY R US
our inner child
were release
deprive childhood
and it was damn fun lah
i miss being a kid!
ahhahhakz!
i dunt wana grow up
it sux to b an adult
to a certain extent......
i dunt want to grow up
and be lyk my mum!
ahahahkz!
but seriously sia...
i dunt wana b lyk her
NAG....NAG...NAG...!
annnoooyyyiiinnnngggg!!!
aniwae
met up wit zaini
went jammin wit
THE UNKNOWN PROPHECY
ahahkz!
change band name!
and!
we got a new member!
PAUL!
he playing the bass...
and on certain song..
he playing the drums!
and!
i met my pri skool guy besfren!
Q!
the last tyme i saw him was lyk..
last yr?
yeah...
he was jammin wit his band
fer his skool graduation dae
everyone seem to hav a band now!
cool!!

i'll upload the pix of us at TOY R US...sum other dae..


its past midnite..
it goes to show dat...
SEAN IS 18!
HAPPIE 18TH B'DAE SEAN!!!!
so...
hus b'dae nxt?
ahahkz!

aniwae..
im so freaking tired
i wana sleep
but im waiting fer SOMEONE to talk to me
everytime i chat wit him..
he nvr reply!
shyte him lah!
wats the freaking wrong wit him sia!
if he is trying to freaking ignore me..
mite as well block me rite...!
but..
hopefully he dunt lah
coz its been so long since i talk to him..
and seeing him online..
wud oready made me happy!
though he nvr talk to me
shyte him!
ahahhakz!
i giv him...
till 1am...
if he not talking to me...
den im not gona talk to him
or say hi
or smile
or wave
at him
if i meet him outside!
hmph!

pix on last fri...

my dearest bitch finally got a blog!
bsides myspace.
and she damn blur!
ahakz!
but learn quite fast..
pandai anak mak...
ahahz!

wo0!
just came back frm clementi
went shopynk!
shopynk fer food!
ahahkz!
fer sean's b'dae bbq
and we bought a whole lot of stuff!
and it all total up to $93.75!
and
fer sean's sake...
me n yanti skipping skool on tues
preparing the food fer him
so to those sean have invited..
pls come!
thank you!



last fri..
celebrated thu's b'dae at skool
bought ben&jerry ice cream..
coz
we dint plan anything fer her b'dae
so..
it was all a last min thing..
and we all shared the ice cream!
nwice!!!
hope thu like it!
HAPPIE B'DAE!!!
then...
went vivo
me yanti and sean
accompany sean to meet his cousin
went window-shopynk!
then aft the cousin left
we went to the rooftop...
talk about some stuff!
its so relaxing..
the cool breeze...
i tink vivo..
is a gd place to emo..
but eversince ders vivo...
esplanade now not famous
and that sux
coz the vivo will always be pack wit ppl
ppl like u and me!
ahakz!!
annnoooyyyiiinnnggg!!

and i tink
im having a major migraine!
my head will hurt out of a sudden
and
i'll get damn irritated easily
isit stresS?
i nid to go the doc...
serious shyte sia...
pain seh~!

i feel like skipping skool one of the dae..
bsides this tues..
go sumwer
shopynk maybe...
hmmm.....
i nid to go shopynk!
i nid new stuff
and
my fashion sense is gettin weirder
im dressing more lyk a woman..
like shaz..
im starting to like heels
and dresses
OMG!
ahahkz!
tryin out new colour
other than black!
but i LOVE black so much
i cant live without it!
ahahhahakz!
i tink
im starting to mature
hmmmmmmmmmm...............
oh well!

my head is starting to hurt..
and i wana go sleep
bye
take cares
cheers mate!



yours truly,
ida