i really wonder whats on your mind.
if only i can read them.



shyty feeling.

yesterday was grrrr....
ahahkz!
i went to meet zaini in the afternoon b4 he off to work..
but guess wat..
i end up waiting for him for 1hr under his blok..
coz he fell asleep!
when he came down..
he apologised and we make UP (not make out)
and ate the food i bought earlier..
which by then taste like blueargh...

then we were off to paris..
coz we had no where to go..
and i have to tutor khairil at ard 6..
so we jalan-jalan..
then met emi and fezra at e!hub

when we walked to downtown,
we saw shazrina and family!
ahahkz!
panic sekejap!
ahahakz! dunt ask why!

then we went to eat at koufu there..
and i got angry again..
because of zaini!
actually its my fault ah..
but he like kurang ajar like dat..
then i got angry ah!
ahahakz!
i realise, i'm quite childish..
after awhile,
we make UP again..
then they sent me to emi's hse..

and my dear ruzaini was off to work!

instead of me tutoring khairil,
i end up tutoring myself!
coz i couldnt really remember the formulas,
so i had to go figure out the answer first
before teaching him..

while i was doing the maths,
he go do something else!
irrtating guy!

and he coudn't do the simplest question!
ahahkz! he better go kill himself!

i left at 10pm..
went tamp to buy sugar!
my dad always ask me to buy something at the last min..
and if i dunt buy it,
he scold me...
like stupid rite..
he call me at 10pm..and told me go buy sugar..
and say he need it urgently!
kedai ape yg bukak!!!!
and its on sunday!

luckily i nvr stay to watch incredible tales at emi hse..
coz by the time i reached tamp to go this shop
it was almost closed!
luckily the sugar got ah..
if not i tink i have to wait outside NTUC till the nxt morning
to get for him the sugar!
grr...make me so angry onie...


ok bye!!





ilovezaini!
♥

where it all began..
ahahkz!
zaini look so ugly ah..!!!
aahahahahahkz!
but i still love him....
(:

anyway,
i got sort of depressed yesterday..
i cried like baby sia...
then while crying, i can still yawn..
aahhakz!

i had this mix feeling..
anger, sad, irritated, neglected...
not forgetting..sleepy..
i think i cried till i slept!

i msged zaini eventhough i know he can't reply..
somehow, it made me feel a little better
atleast, there is someone i can msg to.
(:


&dear god,
please tell me there is still hope!





ok bye!!
iloveyou zaini..
eventhough you bubble me today..!
♥

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Labels: things will get better

oh yes!
its HALF over!

FYP was yesterday..
i dunoe if i did well....
coz i wasnt sure if i answered the questions correctly..
so hopefully i pass!
then can move on to FYP 2..
then, graduate oready sial!
so near yet so far.....

i still need 14 more CE pts to graduate!!
wth~~~!!
ACTIVE pts sumore!
tu lah ida...pemalas sgt...kan kan..!!
i need to go find victim to go for CE stuff with me!
hmmmmm........................
and i still havent pay school fees..
and it was like centuries ago...

aniway,
now my worry,
my tp!
i dunt tink im prepared...
i need a miracle!
ahahkz!

....

so yesterday evening,
met up with dear ruzaini..
coz it was his off-day! ((:
we went kfc..
then decided to watch a movie..
we watched DARK KNIGHT!
it was a freaking 2 1/2 hr!
luckily dear ruzaini manage to catch the 2nd last bus?
but aniway,
the movie was great!
but! i tink it was a little too long..
the excitement died down halfway thru...
so yeah!

ohhh..
2more wks to school!
yayness!


ok bye!

ohh...
its the monday blues...
i want to shyte!!
ahahakz!
not important...

anyway,
FYP almost done!
my poster almost finish...need some amendments...
and the assessment date is THIS wed!
somehow, i can't wait!
coz right now, everything is in my head..
i'm afraid it might get lost by the time its wednesday!

and tp the following week...
gahhh!!
many of my friends got their license oready..
so have my cousin..
so if they can do it, so can i!
right?
ahahkz! hidop mesti ader confidence!
eventhough my parking sucks,
its one of the thing i look forward to sia...!
the adrenaline rush...
ahahahahkz!

and and...
MAYBE for my upcoming aniversary...
i want to do pit on sat of that wk!
can celebrate ramai-ramai...
and zaini getting his pay the day after our anniversary..
so he can go pay for everything!
anything you want, just go look for him...
it's on the house!
ahahahkz!
any second thoughts not ruzaini hashim?


ANIWAY,
hopefully i get to meet zaini today!
i miss him fuckloads.........
its the longest days i never meet him...
except the 2wks i went aust last yr..
but yeah...
yay! i can't wait!!
((:


ok bye!
imissyou...
how?

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guess wat! guess wat!

i finally have a proper running computer at home!
which have internet!
and its wireless!
ahahkz!

you know how long i've been waiting for this...
damn long ah.....
i've been suffering sia...
but now!
i can update my blog often
and also submit my rj!
yayness..!!

now i'm surfing the net at the comfort of my home!
((:

but now i'm damn frustrated over the printer..
coz it can't install...
i waited for so long for it to install...
then halfway,
they say cannot!
irritating or watttttttttt...............


and and..
i haven't meet zaini since last wed...
i miss the fucking dude alot........
i hate his job..
coz i can't see him so often anymore...
haiyahhhhhhhh...........



ok bye!






imissyou ruzaini...!

yesterday was...hmmm....

zaini got his off-day!
happy happy!
luckily he took his off-day on the day i got no school..
so he came at 2pm..
then we left my hse at 3pm..
THEN!
something happen..
luckily my driving cancel...
so i accompany zaini...
after all settled..
we went to eat at qiji!
currently, our fav place to eat...

then went home..
otw home, saw ery!
ahahakz! pathetic sia...
she waited outside my house for 15mins..
and she dint even tell me she was outside..
luckily, i went home early
if not, she have to go walk home from tamp to paris.
then she stayed my house for awhile..
annoying the shyte out of me..
(shouldn't have brought her home!)
ahahahahkz!

then she came up with something stupid..
we imitate the girl in the hi-lo ad...
the yoga position that one..
ahahahakz!! fucking funny sia!!
we couldn't even bend our arms
ahahkz! look so damn retarded ah...
got abs sia from all the laughter..
ahahkz! stupid!

oh!
and i've been getting annoying philipino msges and call..
1 of them almost got me into trouble..
when he msg me " dear call me razib i miss u"
and i was with zaini at that tyme...

i told him he got the wrong no. but he still want to go msg..
after the razib guy got scolded by zaini..
they realised, the guy was looking for jane!
kwang..kwang..kwang...
kan...i told him, he got the wrong no.
but did he listen? NOooo..

eh! i think he bangla!
ahahahkz! wtf!
why would a name like "razib" look for a philipino gerl?
hmmm....

then today,
i got another msg from someone looking for jane!
but the msg was in tagalog!
irritating sia..................................!!

so yeah!
yesterday was....hmmm....

ok!bye!

fyp assessment date is nxt wk..
and i would like to say sorry to my team members..
i'm sorry if i havent been contributing much..
and thanks for being understanding!
(:

and if some of you think i'm always with zaini,
its not true..
i seldom meet him nowadays..
he's either out with his friends or sleeping through the day...
and now that he starting work..
i think i woudn't even be able to see him..
maybe once a wk.. so yeah

and the reason why i'm always MIA..
is i've been feeling damn sick since last 2months..
i swear!!
i still have the headaches and vomitting..
so i've been very lazy.......
extremely lazy..
yesterday i spent 3/4 of my day sleeping...
even my mum didnt know i was at home..
i thought of going my grandma hse which is like 2 busstops away..
but i end up sleeping due to the stupid headaches..
so yeah..
if i could skip school again...i think i wana skip till nxt semester!
but! i can't!
so yeah

i'm sorry if i bubble you guys..
once i feel better,
i'll make it all up!
(:

and and,
tp coming soon!!
my parking still sucks...
and i still stall the engine now and then...
how to pass you tell me?!
and the pakcik damn funny ah...
while doing the slope..
he told me to reach the biting point then release the handbrake..
then he said "kalau gigit kat leher nanti lebam pulak"
ahahakz! like no link at all sia!!
btw, his 68yrs old!
but he look like elvis from far!
ahahakz!! serious shyte!!!

and he even once said i was short...!
damn insulting sia....
he compare me to shameer..of coz lah he taller!!
but if he compare me with ery or fadz..
confirm he say i taller!
hahahakz!

aniway,
to my bitches and watchout clan...
during the hols,
lets have slumber party!!
or bbq overnight!
i miss you guys lah can..
go out soon ah!!!
ok?ok!

to faisal,
i want my cake thing back lah!!!!!

btw ery,
guess who view me at friendster!!
gilerr babi!

oh!
and i probably be using my original hp no. back..
the 9839....
MAYBE onie ah...
coz i forgot where i place the simcard...
so yeah!

ok bye!

sick again.
hmm....its been almost 2mths..
i still have my headaches and vomiting..
and recently,
a slight fever and cough..
i need to go to the doctor again..

aniway,
i know its over..
but!

Happy 18monthsary darling!
w0ohoo!
i still waiting for my perfume ah.........
ok?ok!
iloveyou!
(:

and the other day,
ery rosa indah came my house
coz she needed help for her assignment?
after a few hours,
we made 4apples, some leaves and some lettering!
ahahkz!
and ery damn dumb blonde!!
i kept my white extensions in my drawer..
and when she open it, she thought it was dust!
ahahkz! you should see her reaction!
and she told me some disgusting thing she do...!
you don't wana know!!!
ahahhahakz!

aniway,
zaini will be working from mon-fri and sun...
so i only be able to see him on sat...
its like as if he gone NS sia..
haiyahh...............
i miss the idiot oready......

ok.bye!

ok.
i'm in school!
surprise! surprise!
ahahkz!

anyway,
went to watch "wanted"
with zaini and wan..
it was good but not that good
i think the best part is only the effects..
in the end,
angelina jolie die!
how sad!

aniway,
tp coming soon...
if i passed, i won't tell you..
if i fail, i tell you!
ahahkz!
i think i'm gona fail...
almost accident 2 times sia...
cannot make it already...

and i think my hope of getting a car when i get my license
is vanished!
because my parents found out bout my bill!!!
wait till they found out about the school fees sia!
consperm die!

well, the bill reaction wasn't that bad
when i came home..
my mum said to me " kau nak kena ida..nanti kau..aku nak bebual ngan kau"
i went to my room and wait for her..
but instead,
my dad came to talk to me!
he didnt nag or shout like what my mum would do...

so yeah!
i'm save!

now i don't have to think of where i'm gona get the money to pay my bills!
the only worry,
my school fees and "..." !!!!
shyte~!

ok.bye!