i'm having this feeling! wonderful and excited kinda feeling! actually, i shouldnt be feeling so..instead i should be feeling worried and scared. I was at first, after i read about it..but after i read this particular post, i have this i-wish-it-was-me kinda feeling! haiyah...i wish i could say it here...but i can't! ahahakz!

aniway, i got to meet zaini yesterday! happy but damn angry lah...1st, he had to go work when he supposedly have his off day but luckily he start at 9pm...2nd, he bubble me again!! so that left me with just a few hrs of quality time with him! OH! 3rd, he never share his chocolate biscuit with me!!! ahahkz! LOKEK!

despite the little time we have, i still enjoy myself! ((:
i love love love love love him alot! and the thought of him makes me blush and smile like crazy!


ok bye!!







iloveyou
♥

results are out. and lets just say, i think i wunt be graduating by jan! kwang..kwang..kwang..! coz i think i need to repeat 7modules altogether! from yr1 till yr3! and the shytiest thing now is, i dunt even know my 2nd semester modules and my class coz i havent pay school fees! hahakz! idiot sia! i so hate school! feel like quiting sia...! the good thing is, i pass my fyp 1! and out of the 4modules, i still manage to pass 2! but i think still need to retake! coz D+! cheeeeeebyyyeee!!

you know, i'm thinking of taking private school. course in hotel management and i check out, the raffles academy, the course fee is only $7,800, 8mths institutional training! or camford business school but it takes 18mths! haiyahh...please tell me what i should do?!! confuse!



aniway, tmr i finally get to meet zaini after 5days! yayness! and and, i got a freaking sunburn on my nose! stupid ery wana go swimming the other day. we ended up toasted! ahahahkz! not really toasted ah...but quite toasted! ahahkz! ok bye!!











iloveyou..
♥

yesterday was fun yet disappointing! met up with zaini to accompany him back to work to collect his tips. then we went to eat with his workmates at lido kfc. talk talk talk laugh laugh laugh. then back to orchard towers. coz some of them had to work while i and zaini went to follow 'wildbeardevil' to teach him how to use messenger. ahahkz!

before we knew it, we were late for the firewerks. while rushing to the mrt station.....! zaini had to broke his slippers! of all timing in the world, he had to broke his slippers!! wah..damn annoying sia! so had to go far east and bought new slippers! ahahkz! stupid sia!

by the time we walked out of far east, i can already hear the sound of the firewerks! i was so damn disappointed ah!! its always like dat!! and the most annoying thing is, i always missed the firewerks if i'm with zaini! suay ah! ahahhahakz! i got angry with him for awhile. he still got the cheek to cheer me up by saying " u still get to smell the firewerk nyer asap!"

when we reached cthall, we went to look for ery and the others. we ended up going one round before meeting them at raffles city! met them for awhile then trained back coz zaini wana catch his soccer at 12am...! so yeah! home sweet home!

it was a fun day but deep inside, i was damn sad! ahahahkz!
ok bye!!



iloveyou
♥

Today had lunch with ery. Supposedly to go do hair treatment..but i was late! and she have tutoring at 4pm. So we went marina square to play pool/bowling..but because i was damn hungry, we went to eat first. we ate at pizza hut! by the time we finish eating, it was 4pm! ahahkz! and joti was on her way meeting us. We met joti for awhile then she was off to school! She university oready mah...! so cleaver ah that bitch! ahakz!

Aniway, me and ery trained back..and i head home! and shes been pestering me to go swimming with her since the other day! fat pig! hahahakz! i hope she find a boyfriend real soon! *cross finger*

i miss my zaini. even if i get to spend one whole day with him. i still misses him a whole lot. and the worst part is to miss him even when he is right beside me. now that he is busy with work and even if we communicate most of the time on the phone, its not the same. you know what i mean? haiyahh....i hate his job! wait! i hate HIM for choosing that job. but what to do, as the girlfriend, i have to support him since that is what he is interested in. and if you know zaini, you will know that he is one stubborn person!

and eversince he started work, i have been staying up all night till he called or reached home. that explains why i can't wake up as early as i used to! this is also a way to avoid myself from getting angry too. coz whenever we planned to meet, he will always be late! but now, although he is still late, the duration i have to wait for him is shorter coz i now wake up almost the same timing as him! ahakz! clever ah...!

you know, being in the longest relationship for the first time, i'm learning alot and definitely sacrifice alot. i'm of course beyond content that this relationship lasted longer than i expect and i wish we will still be together 100years down the road. but i think i havent set my priorities right. i'm always thinking of someelse's happinest and not mine.

i've neglected school to be with zaini. i've neglected my friends to be with zaini. so now that zaini don't have the time for me, its time that i take this chance to change. now, i need to learnt time management! i don't want to be the typical girls who live for their boyfriends! i used to hate girls who forget their friends when they got a boyfriend. and i don't want to be that girl. i want to be the girl who can juggle everything perfectly. school, friends and boyfriend! i know, easier said than done. i really hope i can change. and i think i will! (:

on a different topic, HARI RAYA less than 2mths! yayness! ok!bye!

imissyou fuckloads!

♥

Labels: absence makes the heart grow fonder

i think i'm a selfish person. i don't like to share stuff with people except for some. but i got quite angry when my mum told me that shasha( my so-called sister ) borrowed my cardigan. wtf lah~! borrowed my stuff w/o even asking for my permission. i was damn irritated ah. entering my room w/o my permission was worst enough. luckily my mum didn't allow her to use the jacket that yanti bought for me for my b'dae. if not i'll be damn pissed off sia. and she damn clever ah...want to borrow my clothes when i'm not at home. she know my mum would give her choose herself..so she wait till i went out..then ask my mum! irritating or wat!! the next time, i think i'll lock my closet! ahahakz! yes, i'm a very selfish person when it comes to borrowing my stuff to unknown or people i dun't like! grrr........i'll get more angry when they want to borrow my favourite stuff! mengamok siol! maybe i should label some of my clothes " not for loan" ....

by now, you should get a hint that i dun't like this so-called sister of mine. for many reasons. ery and zaini would know why... if you want to meet her, come my house! that is if you lucky enough.


i am very very very angry now!


ok bye!






iloveyou.
♥

maybe you don't know..
but you mean a whole lot to me!
and it hurts when you say it like i don't even exist.
i understand.



Aniway, i didn't get to watch the firewerks!!! This always happen when i make plans with the dudes. I remember 2 or 3yrs ago.. they were late! And this year, they wana hang out at tamp. wth~~!

Zaini had to go for his work meeting till 7pm. So i met up with helmi coz he wana go do his hair!wait...wait..wait...zaini called and said he went to eat with his workmates at town first! walaueh!! So i force helmi go town ah. Still in the end, too late to catch the firewerks! After reuniting with zaini, we just hangout at PS with hafiz. Then went to meet faisal and friends at downtown. I stayed till 3.15am then i was off! it was a mendak.mendak.mendak. national day for me.

And today, my darling is sick but he still have to go to work. I hope he doesn't faint there! saper mau layan.. ahahkz! I hope he get well very soon. imisshim alot!

Anyway, the fasting month is coming soon! yay! I can lose weight. I want to redecorate my room! I love the IKEA. Eventhough they say the stuff there won't last long. oh well.

ok bye!








iloveyou..
♥

so luckily,
zaini reached home at 2am yesterday..
but guess wat!
he dint call me that he have reached home!

do you know how serious that is!!
it is VERY VERY serious!
having a girlfriend like me is troublesome..(i admit!)
i think and worry alot..
to the point where i can go psycho!
seriously.

so yesterday,
i stayed up till 5am..
crying and wondering where he is...
i start to imagine all the nonsense stuff..
like maybe they went clubbing..
then he got drunk..and fuck another girl..and then slept with her!
ahahahkz!!
and i was thinking like maybe this is the end of the relationship..
and stuff...
then i imagine, maybe he got beat up to death..

and to make matter worst,
when i called his hse at 6+am..
his mum said he havent reach home!
imagined how psycho i got!

then i called again at 12+ i think..
and nobody answered!
i thougth his parents mayb went to the mortuary to identify his body!
ahahahhakz!
but seriously sia...
my brain hurt like hell..
and my eyes were already damn swollen from all the crying..
i'm turning psycho!

and at 2pm i think,
he called!
i was so so so relieved!
but angry at the same time...

so zaini,
don't do that next time!!

AND!

i think i need to go for a checkup real soon..
i think my bladder+kidney problem is getting worst..
or maybe i'm having the appendic thing shaz said..
cause i went to pee just now..
and there was this pinkish reddish thing..
and it was quite big!
like half the lenght of your thumb!
i can't even make out what the fuck it is..
but it have happened twice!
but this time bigger!

i used to have this bladder+kidney problem
cause i like to 'tahan kencing'
i know its not good..but i think it became a habit..
i stop going for checkup cause the medicine they gave
became useless!
each time i go, they give 4 big syrup medicine..
even when you tell them you havent finish the rest..
they still give u...
and you have to pay like $80-$100+ everytime!
at the end of the day,
i have like 10btls!
so i decided not to go anymore ah..

and now,
i think its coming back..
when i cough too hard..
my abdomen area will have like this very sharp pain..
and sometimes when i'm just sitting down..
i will experience this short sharp pain..(the 'ngilu' feeling)
and i still have my headaches and nausea..
i really think i need to go checkup fast!




ANYWAY!

HAPPY 43RD SINGAPORE!
feewwiittt....dah tua seh~!
ahahhahakz!

dear zaini not working..
so i hope i get to catch the firewerks today!
(;

((:

iloveyou darling..
more than anything and anyone in this whole wide world..
besides my another scandal! (you know who)
you know you will always come 1st!

and,
thank you for being so understanding and patience
eventhough i'm being unreasonable AT TIMES!

iloveyou darling..
you will always be my only one!
♥

muaacks! (:




yours truly,
ida!

My personality: I am a sensitive doer.

Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly. Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them.

As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own.

http://www.ipersonic.com/test.html

Blood type A

Advantages:
obedient, careful, sympathetic, empathetic, self-sacrificing, polite, willing to compromise, honest and loyal.

Disadvantages:
worries a lot, emotional, weak-willed, indecisive, introverted, anti-social, wishy-washy, nervous.

Traits:
Reserved calm, even tempered, introverted, sensitive to public opinion, responsible, reliable even tempered and takes charge when others are in confusion. May be introvert, standoffish or shy. May feel nervous or ill at ease with others. Sensitive to surroundings and others. Hesitant to change. May feel misunderstood. Nature lover and prefers suburbs away from crowds. Needs a private space for refuge. May be accused of being a pessimist. Because of their fear of change many are artists or creative types due to sensitivity. Craves success.

check it out!
http://pachome1.pacific.net.sg/~roma/analysis_of_blood_group.htm#typea

so true.

ERY! you should go read your blood type!
damn true ah!!
ahahhakz!!

Labels: iloveyou

haven't been to school for 1wk..
been feeling sick and lazy..
my headaches and nausea are back..
damn sucky ah..

i think i have to repeat this semester!
coz i skipped like really really alot..
and my grades are either C or D coz i never do RJ!
ahahakz!
if i get thru this semester, it must be a miracle!
ahhh...i hate school!

1more wk till 1st sem end!
and then its 2nd sem!
and hopefully i'll get to graduation!
i want to graduate in jan!
i don't want to repeat another 6mths!
so pls give me some motivation to go school...

aniway,
i finally have my fyp2 team!
((:
i'm glad they gave me a chance to choose a team
coz my name wasn't in the list!
of all names, they missed out my name!
like wth~!
but i guess its a blessing in disguise for me!
(:


and and,
tmr the WOC having picnic!
instead of bbq..
coz we are poor people! ahahkz!
if we are just gona bbq hotdogs and chicken,
its damn pathetic!
ahahkz! so we might as well have picnic!
no nid to waste money on charcoal and booking of pit and etc.

i think i'm cooking aglio olio!
coz some havent try it..
except for zaini, shameer and fir!
and they like it! esp. zaini!
always want me to cook for him whenever he come my hse..
and my dad help to cook asam pedas..
so i'm like the 'main course' girl ah..
while the others bring sandwiches, tidbits and etc..

yay! i can't wait!
then we can play stupid games like the other time!
((:

to the WOC..
you all better come sia!!!
then we can take WOC latest pic!
got new member wat...!!
ok?ok!

ok.
i'm hungry!
i want to go buy prata!
then go ntuc!
bye!!






imissyou...
♥