so luckily,
zaini reached home at 2am yesterday..
but guess wat!
he dint call me that he have reached home!

do you know how serious that is!!
it is VERY VERY serious!
having a girlfriend like me is troublesome..(i admit!)
i think and worry alot..
to the point where i can go psycho!
seriously.

so yesterday,
i stayed up till 5am..
crying and wondering where he is...
i start to imagine all the nonsense stuff..
like maybe they went clubbing..
then he got drunk..and fuck another girl..and then slept with her!
ahahahkz!!
and i was thinking like maybe this is the end of the relationship..
and stuff...
then i imagine, maybe he got beat up to death..

and to make matter worst,
when i called his hse at 6+am..
his mum said he havent reach home!
imagined how psycho i got!

then i called again at 12+ i think..
and nobody answered!
i thougth his parents mayb went to the mortuary to identify his body!
ahahahhakz!
but seriously sia...
my brain hurt like hell..
and my eyes were already damn swollen from all the crying..
i'm turning psycho!

and at 2pm i think,
he called!
i was so so so relieved!
but angry at the same time...

so zaini,
don't do that next time!!

AND!

i think i need to go for a checkup real soon..
i think my bladder+kidney problem is getting worst..
or maybe i'm having the appendic thing shaz said..
cause i went to pee just now..
and there was this pinkish reddish thing..
and it was quite big!
like half the lenght of your thumb!
i can't even make out what the fuck it is..
but it have happened twice!
but this time bigger!

i used to have this bladder+kidney problem
cause i like to 'tahan kencing'
i know its not good..but i think it became a habit..
i stop going for checkup cause the medicine they gave
became useless!
each time i go, they give 4 big syrup medicine..
even when you tell them you havent finish the rest..
they still give u...
and you have to pay like $80-$100+ everytime!
at the end of the day,
i have like 10btls!
so i decided not to go anymore ah..

and now,
i think its coming back..
when i cough too hard..
my abdomen area will have like this very sharp pain..
and sometimes when i'm just sitting down..
i will experience this short sharp pain..(the 'ngilu' feeling)
and i still have my headaches and nausea..
i really think i need to go checkup fast!




ANYWAY!

HAPPY 43RD SINGAPORE!
feewwiittt....dah tua seh~!
ahahhahakz!

dear zaini not working..
so i hope i get to catch the firewerks today!
(;