went out wit ifa and adnand
to marina sq..
suppose to meet wan and syaf and zaini
to watch dancewerk..
and meet ery aft dat
but!
zaini woke up late..
and ery probably still sleeping as well...
and i dint want her to get scolded by her mum fer goin out wit me again..
so i joined ifa and adnand..
my pri school frenzies!
wanted to watch ' norbit '
but we missed the 1st slot..
and the nxt slot is at 7.10pm
me and adnand die die wana watch ' norbit '
but ifa dint want to..
so...
we bought tix to
' hannibal rising '

sadist shyte!
the way hannibal killed his victims..
fucking gruesome!
a damn interesting movie!
but that depends on your interest uh..
and i dunt mind watching it fer the 2nd time!

the movie ended at 5+
i tot i wanted to meet zaini at 7+..
but!
adnand still wanted to watch ' norbit '
so do i..
so we bought tix to
' NORBIT '

funny!
but disgusting shyte!
ahahhahakz!
all the FATS!
my god!

before the movie started..
we got lyk 1hr+ of free tyme..
so we played pool..
and arcade..
ifa loser of the day!

aniwae,
after movie..
i planned to go zaini hse..
instead of him meeting me at cthall or tamp..
since he wana watch soccer..
you knoe..
guys...soccer..
a world of their own!
so yeah..

but!
ifa and adnand were starving!
and they crave fer ' sup tulang '
so we went beach rd!
left marina sq at 10+..

i tot i cud meet zaini aft eating..
even if by then it'll be very late at nite
i still wana meet him!
meeting him is lyk a daily routine!
die die must meet!

i oready got it all planned out..
lyk...
what im gona tell my parents..
aft eating..i'll take mrt to tamp..
then take 72 to hougang..

but!
on the way to mrt..
father called!
told me to go home!
coz my mum not werking..and she nagging at him
because of me..
no choice..
i had to go home..

wen i got home..
my mum nag..
stressful ah wen shes at home..
thats the reason why i rather go out than stay at home wit my mum
so yeah..

im terribly sorie
to zaini..
i feel so bad!

i dunoe wats wrong wit me this few daes..

wenever i tried to do many things at the same tyme..
and try not to hurt anyone..
i'll always end up hurting sumone!

and tmr..
im scared it will happen again..

my mum not werking..
and she probably wana go out..
and the ex 1e4 coralites having pit!
and i wana meet zaini...

so many things..
and one indecisive me!

shud i go pit?
or shud i not?

or shud i meet zaini ferst..
then to the pit?

shud i follow my mum
so that i can go out aft dat?

wah.
stressfull.
thinking of the consequences!
haiyohh......

if only freedom was on sale!
i wud hav bought lots of it!

im 18!
and i still get locked up!
im 18!
and i still have to inform my parents my whereabout!
im 18!
and i still have to lie to gain that moment of freedom!

fuck sia!

i know they're worried..
but no matter how late i reached home..
i still go home wat!!!
urgh.

i know my limits!

thats wat kids nowadays always say..
but seriously.
i do know my limits!
no matter how bad they tink i am...
atleast..
i dunt drink.
or smoke.
or get my life wasted!

and
its not my friends who change me..
its them!
but i guess they watch too much tv..

and
im terribly sorie to zaini!
i really dint mean it!

i knoe..
if i keep to this attitude..
im scared i'll lose him....
and i wudnt want that to happen..

IM REALLY REALLY REALLY SORIE!

i hate february!
many shitty shytes happened!

and
as always..

I ♥ ZAINI!!!
and i need him more than ever..