about the racist thing..
maybe helmi and zaini did started it..
but if zaini were to be racist,
then i wonder where he get all his multi-racial friends from?
and i bet you didn't know zaini ever had a chinese girlfriend.
so that makes us understand one thing.
they're not racist!

and even after all that PS incident,
zaini wasted his SMILE on jason..
jason didnt even look at him..
zaini actually tried to be nice to him..
did jason?

oh wait,
maybe you don't realise.

few incidents,
when we met again at S11 at tamp..
he 'jeling' when zaini smiled at him.
like wtf?
my boyfren trying to be all nice despite the PS incident..
where else jason giving him all the fucking attitude.
please ah. grow up.
we're not in the secondary school days animore.
and you were trying to defend him saying he wasn't in the mood..
when a few minutes ago i saw him so happy and shit
oh right,
mood swing

and when me and nab met you at esplanade,
and you were with jason.
he was giving that fucking attitude again
when we were all excited to meet each other..
and where was he?
at one corner far away from us..
you can say his shy and all that...
but tell me again,
how old is he?
and compare to us...he's wayy older!
i don't see the reason why his getting all shy and stuff.
oh wait,i know.
people are different

and shaz,
just a reminder,
we know each other for almost 6yrs! (excluding kindergarten)
and you know jason how long?
almost 2yrs maybe?
and i know zaini for almost 4yrs..
our friendship are wayy longer then our boyfriends
and we should know each other well enough
i can read you like a book..maybe now, i don't think so.
but still,
you don't have to ask me everyday if i got a problem.
(when we were still bestfriends)

and tell me exactly how long you really know your cousin?
coz i dunt tink its 17yrs..
don't tell me when you guys were still babies,
you guys actually know each other inside out already.
one word,
WOW!

coz from what i know,
you guys only grew closER when we all met at your sis wedding
which was 3yrs ago.

and to whom it may concern,
if you don't know anything..
or what really is going on..
don't try to.
trying to show empathy,understanding and stuff.
bullshit.

fucking hypocrites.

well,
we're all hypocrites.

and its ok.
you can keep the thing that you got for me
for your next bestfriend
really.
coz i'll probably feel bad and guilty if you were to give it to me
especially aft all this.

and think again shaz,
even despite all that first impression thing..
if your dearest boyfriend could have atleast change
his 'fucking attitude' that i've been saying..
maybe all this wouldn't have even exist.
don't you think so?

and i'm not the only one hating his attitude.
and we're not the only people who have encounter it.
and i don't hate jason because zaini did.
oh and this remind me of something.
i don't hate jason when i knew him the ferst time.
but i hate his stupid debate over the smallest thing.
you hate it too.
and he was rather talkative when i ferst knew him..
he wasn't so shy like you claim him to be..
what an irony.

this is what i think about the PS incident thing.
i think its a little unfair for your other friends
to judge zaini first impression.
they didn't really knew about what happened before that.
about the call helmi made.
and that tyme, they don't know jason attitude.
but from the call, jason already like damn fucked up.
(first impression?, bad!)

if zaini hate jason even before he knew jason,
he wouldnt have followed me and nab to the PS
but instead,
he wanted to see whether jason is really like what he is on the phone.
and i don't even remember about the sarcasm thing you talking about
maybe you misunderstood us.
we probably laughing about something else.
if not, tell me what was the sarcasm about.
and when we were gone,
something happened.
THANKFULLY, nab was there with you guys.
she told us.
from that on,
my impression on jason has totally changed.
he don't know zaini and he was oready talking stuff
so do you think its zaini's fault that his impression on jason was bad?
did you even know he was secretly looking at zaini while pretending to play his phone!?
psycho!


but you know what.
its ok.
i got my reasons so do you.
you can counter-attack me for all i care.
but from what i gathered through you and the people involved.
thats what i think.
and i'm not siding my boyfriend.
coz i seen it all and i encounter it all myself.
WE all think you deserve a better guy.
but oh well,
opposite attracts!

you know,
jason should learn from sven.

summary of all this,
if jason was a nicer guy.
the world would be a better place to live in.

and shaz,
there were never this much bitching about you before you were with jason.
just incase you were thinking of it since
there was bitching among us since secondary school days.


you don't have to reply if you don't want to.